Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Where Have You Been?

Well, it seems I have checked out for the last couple of months! It’s a funny thing that happens when we become preoccupied with other matters. I was dealing with a minor issue. I had requested to be relocated and was told there wasn’t anywhere for me to go. So, the last couple of months have been spent recalculating, focusing on renewal, and making plans to stay where I am for a long time to come. It’s interesting how our circumstances can drastically change our mindset. When I thought I would be moving, I mentally checked out! Oh yea, I was going through the motions, but I was pondering the possibilities for my future in different locations. Where would I go, what would be the focus of my ministry, and how would I adjust? All good questions, but I overlooked the obvious – I didn’t expect a “no where” response.
Now, my mind is racing once again, but in a totally different direction. How do I find the new energy, how do I implement the needed programming to move forward, how do I convince others that now I really do want to be exactly where I am? I had an interesting conversation with a co-worker today that I believe reflects where I am. The “nowhere” response really needs to become the “ now here” answer. I really think it is time for me to start listening to my own sermons. “If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude!” Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t like where I have been, it just that I need to change the way I have been dealing with my work. I need to change the things that I can change and I need to change my attitude toward those things I can’t. This has been a long journey that has resulted in bringing back to the same place where I have been. And I am glad to say I am “now here”. Where have you been?